Do you have a thing (or maybe things) in your life that you´ve always wanted to do, yet you never even tried it? I have quite a few. Actually, my personal list of dreams and wishes is quite extensive, and yet there were times when a simple idea of fulfilling my dreams scared me. Why? I often ask myself what´s standing between me and my success. Is it fear? Lack of confidence? Procrastination? The most probably it´s a combination of the three of them.
Then again, over the past year I´ve learned one major lesson: you have to see a crisis as an opportunity. Loss of job, relationship crisis, lack of motivation. Been there, done that. Everyone has moments in his or her life when nothing´s going right. It feels like your world is falling apart and you don´t know what´s waiting for you in the future. I was in such a situation only a few months ago. Freshly graduated, unable to find a job of my dreams in the country of my dreams, I was watching my own family falling apart while having some serious health issues. Plus, at the same time, we got into a long distance relationship with my boyfriend so I didn´t even have a shoulder to cry on. Everything that could go wrong went wrong.
I spent so much time thinking about why. Why me. Why now. Classic questioning. And than it hit me. I think all in life happens for a reason. And maybe this was an opportunity for me to spend a little more time thinking about how I live my life. Everyone around me had always imagined my life in quite a simple way: masters in international relations, first job at the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, the whole career in diplomacy. No need to say, that didn´t happen. And for the first time in my life I had time to think whether this was something I really wanted for myself. I spent a lot of sleepless nigths thinking and rethinking my life choices, and in the end, the conclusion was painful but simple: my own dreams, and the dreams of my entourage weren´t the same. They were trying to persuade me that they knew exactly what was best for me. But that´s not true.
And now I´m really grateful even for those several horrific months because they thaught me a lot of things. That I need to follow my own path. That I deserve my happiness, and I deserve to pursue all of my dreams. So, in just a few days I´m moving out of reach (hopefully :) of my beloved, but sometimes a little bit harmful family. I´m ready to start a new life in a new country (but still with the same man :). And I´m ready to pursue my dreams and become a magazine writer. So, please keep your fingers crossed for me :)
And don´t forget, each crisis presents a valuable opportunity. You just need to figure it out!